I'm tired of waiting..I've given up

Yesterday waas R's birthday and i decided, I'm not waiting around anymore. I have given up.


Then there is A. I noticed little things about him. Like that he has such a nice smile and it goes so well with his eyes(which are a beautiful light blue) but then i found out the other things like, he's 19, going into his second year of college (in ohio none-the-less) and he has a girlfriend. But still I noticed That he does this weird eyes half-closed talk to his feet thing when hes talking to a group of people adn that if I say anything, he kind of opens his eyes and looks at me when he talks. but its complicated and I'm not sure that made sense. But i do know that I really like him and that I don't know really anything about him. I don't want to fall in love with a stranger.




I havent posted because are computer broke so sorry.